I think it's important that I address the fact that for a great period of time I had not been doing so well. Stress, depression, and over all anxiety had taken a toll. I had begun wearing clip ins to mimic my natural hair. Many people didn't know and assumed it was mine. So much of my hair had broken off and shedded that if I wore it without the clip ins people would have been concerned. All the awkward uncomfortable questions would have been enough to kill what was left of my self esteem at that point. Not even my closest friends really knew (sorry guys). That's why this blog is such a big deal for me. Going to college and just growing up in general opens a new pathway and chapter for me. Taking proper care of hair is really just a stepping stone into taking proper care of myself inside and out, because now I truly believe that I'm worth it. Many people may think that it's silly or too much investment to think about hair, but it's not just about that. It's about building myself up and making myself feel beautiful as I am. While I love weaves, braids, and extensions of all kinds, I want to know that when I take all that out and I have my own. It may be weird to some people and yes they might not understand, but honestly they don't have to, that's not what Olive&Castor is about. It's just me helping other like me to attain our goals, to reach our ideals of satisfaction and to feel our own sense of beauty and contentment.
This was back in March of 2013 I had split ends like crazy. In this pic I pined them out of the way a little, but this was my true length. My hair was thin, breaking, brittle, and had three textures.
Now it's full all by itself. Its now comfortably shoulder length. It's all one length, and it's beautiful. I know if I keep up my regimen that it will only get better.
There is nothing wrong with you seeking beauty in your hair. Hair is an important thing to most women. There is nothing wrong with taking care of your hair and growing it if it makes you feel better. You never have to hide anything like that from me. We have all been through it. What's important is what makes you happy and what makes you feel beautiful. You create your own beauty. I think you are beautiful inside and out and always will but it's much more important for you to feel that way about yourself. I love you girl. We all have our things we'd just rather keep to ourselves. Do you. Take care of your hair and it'll be down your back in no time.
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